Friday, June 26, 2009

Don't DIY.

Being that American Apparel is one of my favorite brands, I find it hard to understand how they could possibly think this looks good. I received a Daily Update email from them containing this picture with the caption, "DIY Safety Pin Tank."I I have many items from AA and I'm sure many of them would not get the approval of most, however, this just seems outlandish and unattractive and I'm left confused.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Beautiful. Glamorous. Fabulous. Royal. Dripping with diamonds and making an impact on the world. To be a Princess, to be loved by millions, to be an image of majesty and elegance, to be admired and adored by the nation, oh how lovely it would be.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009


At times I'll admit I feel trapped by the life I lead. I know there's a world out there full of people and sights I've never seen. There's so much exploration and traveling I'd like to do in my lifetime. I want to experience different cultures, scenery's, food, and look at the world with a new set of eyes. It seems so effortless to just hop on a plane or jump in the car and navigate the open sky and road. However, it's not all that simple. Money and time are the outstanding issues and one day I will find both to fulfill my growing desire to uncover a new world, a new mind, and memories that words alone cannot describe. I knew it would be impossible for me to concentrate on studying. Even removing myself from the computer and isolating myself into a cubicle in the library can't stop the compelling thoughts that enter my mind. I need this release and its fluid, natural, and free flowing motion. It's this moment I have now, that inspires me for the future.

Did I mention how much I love ice cream? Another weakness of mine. I could go for a cone at just about anytime of the day. Crunchy candy Rainbow sprinkles make my mouth happy. Mhm!

Monday, June 22, 2009


I have an addiction. I have a Cupcake obsession. I find myself craving one almost everyday. Luckily I have a sufficient amount of willpower to keep me from doing so but it's not easy to say no all the time. There are days when I think about running to the store to buy the mix to bake a batch or try to make an excuse to go to Sweet! & stuff my face. I simply cannot get enough of the deliciously tasty treats! My mouth waters at the mere thought of them. My heart beats faster when I think about them and I spend way too much time looking at cupcake blogs. We all have weaknesses. Cupcakes are one of mine. Their sugary goodness satisfies my sweet tooth and keeps me coming back for more.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Wish list.

Norma Jeane

I can't remember the specific time when I became fascinated with Marilyn Monroe, but it's been quite a few years. There's something about her that I find extremely appealing. I admire her beauty and her fashion. It almost seems absurd to have an interest in people we will never meet or will never know. We admire the life they lead and look to them as a source of inspiration. Marilyn was so glamorous and she seemed so full of life. It's a tragedy that her life had to end the way it did. I always wonder what she would look like today and what she would be doing with her life if she were still alive. I wonder.

"I want to be rich
& I want lots of money.
I don't care about clever
I don't care about funny.
I want loads of clothes
& fuckloads of diamonds
I heard people die while they're trying to find them.

I don't know what's right & what's real anymore.
& I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore.
When do you think it will all become clear?
Because I'm being taken over by the fear."
-Lily Allen

Everything is moving so fast & I can't help but smile.
I'm so grateful.
I'm so grateful.
I'm so grateful.

Friday, June 19, 2009

Dear Brother,

We all just want to belong; to feel accepted, liked, and to be a part of a group. It's a human need to want and desire interaction and attention. We are striving for individuality and expressing our creativity any way we possibly can. There is so much pain and suffering in the world. I try to neglect it, distance myself from it, and ignore it but it will never disappear. If there was something more I could do to help, I would, but the situation is out of my control.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Ring, ring.

I'm writing to myself & for myself because no one cares about what I have to say but me. It's sort of like a documentary. It's a device of reflection. Sometimes when I read things I've written I laugh at how silly I sound and think of how odd I may appear to others. It doesn't bother me much, I just laugh.

Am I wasting my time typing or spending it on something I enjoy? I think a little bit of both.

I don't have a house phone and the idea of having one seems completely unnecessary these days. I remember playing with the cord of the phone and being excited when someone was calling to speak to me. Caller ID was pretty neat when it first came out too. Now I assume that most house phones are cordless. Now, cellphones predominate our technologically obsessed society and house phones seem dead to me.

Afternoon snack.

I can't keep my mind focused on one thing. My mind races persistently and my heart is beating so fast. I feel anxious and jittery but I really can't complain. I can't wait to float in the sea and let the waves crash over me. The beach is something I miss greatly when I'm away from home. I never realized how lucky I was to have the beach so close to home. One day I will live on the beach or somewhere very close to it and swing in my hammock in my backyard. I enjoy the feeling of the sun wrapping its arms around me and the salty air mingling with my face and hair. I get so lost sometimes. Driving to school this morning I felt so free and happy. If only we could hold onto our good feelings for more than a few moments in time. The mind works in mysterious ways. I'm holding on so tightly to my youth, I never want to grow up. In two weeks reality will hit me hard and I'm ready. I'm ready for it all.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Combo # 1

Currently can't get enough of Rompers, High waisted cut off jean shorts, Bongo shorts, strappy sandals, giant rings, flower prints, pink lips, leotards, one piece bathing suits, &vintage handbags and belts. Ah, I love summer. The heat, the sun in sky, the afternoon thunderstorms, and the way everything just seems to flow and fall into place.