Monday, November 2, 2009

I wonder all the time what I am in your eyes.
How do you see me?
I've been trying to figure out what's wrong with me.
My mood is forever bipolar.
I go through weeks of being happy; bursting with optimism.
Other days I feel so empty and negative.
Am I uninteresting, lame, too needy, or too boring?
Am I intimidating or a joke?
Am I too bitchy or too nice?
I wonder why I even ask these rhetorical questions.
Never knowing and creating endless possibilities makes my head hurt.
I don't mean to complain, I'm just trying to understand what's so wrong with me.
No invites.
No phone calls.
Quite frankly I feel invisible.

I really need a vacation...

Today I completed almost everything on my checklist:
Painted my nails
Whitened my teeth
Gave myself an organic apple facial peel
Did some laundry
Cooked & cleaned
Read some Spanish
Updated the blog 2x's
Did an online practice interview for class
Rode bikes & explored Avalon with my boy

Overall today was a success.

O.P.I Nail polish makes me happy.
I love these long & thick braids.

atleast I have a LOVE that's real...